So… I’ve kind of abandoned this blog, but I’ve been in the mood to write, and I really want to try to start this back up again.
First off, I would like to apologize to those who did enjoy reading my blog. I’m sorry for leaving you guys in the dust. I’m a little mad at myself for practically quitting something I cared so much about. So, I’m sorry.
Moving on, I would like to explain that cooking is still my passion. Something I still dream of pursuing. Something I wouldn’t mind doing for the rest of my life. But… there’s another thing that’s kind of consuming my life (in a good way) right now. Music. Most of you know that I play violin. And, I am quite frankly really enjoying that right now. I have for a while. For the past couple of months, I haven’t really been working on anything in particular. Working on a solo piece for a recital coming up, working on a duet with my teacher. Nothing out of the ordinary. But competition season is approaching at my school, and we’re all working really hard to get everything together in time. I’m working on a trio with two other friends of mine at school, that I’m hoping and praying we get to Nationals with. Other than all that, that’s pretty much it. It doesn’t sound like much, but… practicing takes up a lot of my time during the day.
I’m sure you all understand that I lead a busy life. It’s stressful and crazy, but luckily, I still have time to get out and have fun, and spend time with people I love.
So, now that we have that out of the way, I want to update you on what’s going on with the whole cooking thing. As I said, I still love it. Actually… I adore it. With a passion. And it’s strange that I haven’t been doing much of it. It’s a little confusing sometimes. I’m just in the weird, busy time of life right now… trying to focus on one thing. And I’ve been focusing so much on school and music, that it kind of scares me to even think about trying to focus on cooking too. But I love it, and it’s my dream. What I love about cooking, is it will be there when I graduate high school. It’s probably something that’s easier to pursue after high school anyways. It’s still amazing. I still get in the kitchen every once and a while, and I just cook. I clear my mind of every little thing going on in my life, and I just cook. You’re moving around the whole time. Chopping your vegetables, oiling your pan, throwing something in the oven, and mixing and stirring, chopping and cleaning dirty dishes along the way. You get in this flow where all you care about is for this meal to be perfect. There’s nothing else in the world. Just you and your kitchen. And that’s what I love about it. I’m not thinking about anything while I’m cooking. And when I’m done, I feel so relaxed. I sit down, and take a bite and you feel so… well… happy! I think to myself “Wow! I did that!” It may sound strange but really… what makes a meal is the love and thought you put into it. And you end up feeling proud of it. And that’s why cooking is special to me. It clears my mind. It’s like the steam coming from the stove is absorbing every little thought going through my mind, and takes it away. Again, it may sound strange… but it’s really just because I absolutely love cooking (I swear I’ve said that like.. 20 times in this post!). I’m writing this basically to let you know (if you still care) that I still care about cooking. I still dream of one day finding my place in the crazy world of culinary. It’s my dream. Something I long to do. And because of that, I want you guys to be here to witness that. If it ends up working out, of course. 🙂